ACACIAAVENUE

Old feelings burning brighter than ever..

2008-11-01T20:04:30Z

halloween was aight, ning is a cheebye cause she wiped her whole fucking face on my sleeve. knnccb!
jasmine was..like just totally high and gone, still want to drink after even, luckily i wasn't the one taking care of her..
i was perfectly fine until i started owning, then the feeling kicked in and plus my empty stomache Urghhh..
made few new friends, i personally and honestly think anderson is a bloody handsome chap.

I r very jealous :(
sigh, owell lucky people in this world, me and jared smoking in the cab was really DEEE shit.. love it.
Getting home after was hahahha fucking funny, It started raining at like 4, so i kinda thought we should leave asap.
but we ended up drinking and talking about really things that relates us. HA HA i cannot forget jaime's face sitting on the chair with her "wtf is going on why did i come here face."
Pretty happy that she was with them at the party, haven't seen her in ages and well..
she never fails to look fucking flyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Yes..very verrrrrry soothing on my eyes..perfect for my sad lil pair of eyes.

Sunday will be chillax day because i feel like chillingggggggg
i feel like watching the whole of LOTR again..i shall consider tmr..
ke ke ke halloweeeeeeeen u are so yesterday but people are still..dressing up..whaatthefuccccccccck..
life..

Not rather this not rather that,
what i want is something in the past,
kinda present,
after her,
before her,
am i certain?
no, not really but i'll like to just keep it to myself.
Cause sometimes somethings are just meant to be kept secret ^^
try not to read between the lines,
cause no one in this world can understand,
how i feel, how i think, what you know now...is only just a glimpse..

SLEEP

2008-09-28T09:38:29Z

i've never had such a good sleep in my entire life...
gonna just revise one last time later on..

reading...reading...reading...
maybe you've been shredding secretly in ur backyard!
WaaAaaa my eyeszxzx, they hurt they hurt they hurt.

i cannot wait for the next epi of 90210..jessica..mmmm HA HA
yeah i rather have no one else
i bet you've been tapping secretly in your basement!

Only people in pain can do painful things.
Only people who have been hurt can hurt others
Only people with closed hearts are able to act in less than loving ways..

i could listen to tulips everyday all daylong...mmm..

BLOOD..

2008-09-10T16:17:18Z

to the one and only person who knows everything about me. I know we aren't really close and we can't talk much cause of certain circumstances..losing ur phone and shit. I still remember how it all started, last year november, i just moved into my new house. Bored as fuck, and i randomly asked you to come over with your ps2 as we winning eleven and later go simpang.Surprisingly you agreed, with one condition tho you had no cash and i jokingly said " zhao cab la.." when you called me i was waiting outside with my wallet in my right hand, ciggerette in another. However there was no taxi and you were sweating and panting like a bitch, took me a spilt second to realise and i started laughing my fucking ass off fucking hardcore..So much for britney spears give me more huh? Who knew that would start a beautiful friendship, from just going to town stoning at each other, drinking together, going to town after waking up at 5 pm. Looking at our stoned faces during the bus rides, exchange of songs, Cooking noodles ha ha standard, then bring to the back to eat & smoke. Talking about girls, girls and maybe a certain girl ;)

Talking about games, how a diablo and final fantasy freak you were, well you still are!
Playing soccer together, going to simpang and using the free food technique which we have already banned ourselves from using ever again.Smoking in my toilet and YES DON'T LIE I ALWAYS get the small space, or you would be a sialan cunt and rush to sit on the railing then i would have no choice but to stick my head out. How we always eat jap food tgt. HE HE pig ourselves out. The countless of times you had to wait at the park, the one where you waited for 2 hours cause i was sleeping and you woke up early and went out for tea..you weird dog. How i had dinner with your mom and she went all aggro cause she was tipsy, scared the living shit outta me and how can we not forget heart to heart chats, about a particular girl or maybe just life itself, introducing you to my secret rooftop that no one knows i go. Writing songs for our SOON TO BE band..and just chain smoking.
How you'll just sit on my laundry basket and watch me OWN in dota HE HE. Having dinner with my parents HA HA seafood and i kept giving you muscles to eat and the countless repeating of "thx..thxx.thx.."
Fucking scheming about beating people ha ha haha
reading seventeen and talking about how we all love to date so many girls but we'd always have a particular one in the end anyways. Being fucking sneaky all the time around my house but there was this time when my parents were overseas and my house was like a fucking FUNFAIR.. smoke freely in my room. Door open, close, whatever didn't matter...

I was laughing about the times you'll just play dota and not pay attention to anything at all. I could throw my boxers at you, me and vanjill could be under the covers and you wouldn't even turn just to see where we are, what we're doing. Ha ha you and jon in the toilet, caught something with your eyes that you guys shouldn't have seen. How you tell me your "maxim" accident and we tell everything anything anyways.

yeah we've been through stupid arguments, but that's what life is isn't?
not stupid arguments but getting through the worst for the better.

Takecare of yourself you mother fucking maid mutt. :) I will see you around and hopefully bump into you soon.
You should know who you are..

OCTOBER

2008-09-03T11:33:56Z

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now - even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and i. It can be good or bad, it can be anything you want. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.( i just stole this from eu eu and i think it's from hannah ^^ )

WAH FUCKING HELL SOMETHING CAUGHT MY EYES, I SHOULDN'T HAVE NEVER READ IT AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK FUCK HA HA HA HA HA HhahH

FUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKING HELL OLOLOL FUCK FUCK FUCK UFCK DAMMM CHEESY TO THE MAX LOLO L OL O FUCKFUCKFUCKUFKC LOL FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK i guess..charming boys = cheesy guys = get hot girls= wtf= why? + how? = no fucking idea

Okay..i should take my mind off it..
this picture cracks me up so fucking bad..it's actually making me forget what i just read he he, happyyyyyyy ^^ V!!!!!!!!

†

2008-08-13T18:48:47Z

The roads are so empty tonight..i can hear the polluted canal just slowly move..
Met jerms and kaiwennnnnznznnz just now, fucking missed them
both still the same :)

Sigh, i was looking up in the sky tonight while walking home, it's really dammm AH breathtaking. The clouds today really just...
i wonder which star you are tonight..

school starts in 3 hours..ugh fuck me..

Sayin' I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say it, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cause I'd already know

22acaciaavenuee @ 2008-08-13T01:29:00

2008-08-12T17:50:44Z

Ok..just another 30 minutes till i cycle to simpang to buy my cigs..
fucking need to smoke so badddddddddddddddddddddddddddd harrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrxxxxxxxx if only marine parade was nearer!!!!!!! it's too fugging far to cycle..

okay this is my usual plan for a night like this, go in my p.e shirt and boxers. Buy my cigs, usually pallmall menthol or if i'm feeling rich dunhill frost, prolly head over to kaiwen's or jerm's just to catch up and talk and talk and talk. Cycle or walk back home..walk to the back of my house. Smoke one more, then up to my room. Smoke one more then wash my face, charge my phone, set my alarms ( no im lying) and finally get myself under the cover and i'll just think of happy things that make me smile and giggle hehe then after 5-10 minutes ( sometimes it goes for hours) i finally curl myself into a comfortable position and just go "dead" mode oh before that i have to put my blanket at this certain position so it wraps around my feet.I also like hug things when i sleep, soft things usually my pillow ( yeah i know i don't have a bolster wtf?)i usually like the outer side but i can take both sides but usually the left..i like to close my window shades right before the maximum so that i don't wake up in total darkness i like it when rays of light just shoot inside. wowazx. i'll close my toilet door but not to the maximum cause my room has suction so if my maid opens the door in the morning to off the aircon or whatever it'll make a knock sound which is fucking a turn off.

i also like it when i'm sleeping but i feel a smile on my face and wake up to see someone famillar, prolly someone that i luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv
i also like to wake up to a sweet smell all over my bed, on my clothes and really just everywhere.i also like it when i wake up and i find my phone to have only 1 message from that one person i was thinking of last night. i also like it when i wake up to have pancakes and my whole family there with me just like old times. I also like it when mom and dad talk nicely to each other over a cup of coffee while i use the computer and listen to the conversation sneakily. I also like it when i wake up and i see 2 notes for me one for when i wake up to check for you and the other after i wake up again. I also like it when there's no asshole mazda fucking driving at 200 mph down a fucking narrow road with houses everywhere 5am in the morning. His car engine is my brothers car x 2, i think he's challenging my father..seriously. I also like it when i wake up and open my window to smoke and i don't see any ahbengs right opposite my house(the park).i also like it when i wake up and it just finished raining and theres a huge rainbow. Wait no this is what i love the most, i like waking up feeling fucking happy cause you had such a good dream last night it just might be real and when you try to find for your retainers they're right there..and when you check your ciggerette pack there's none missing.

keeping space for only you in this run down place..

2008-08-12T12:10:48Z

I'M SO TIREDDDDDDDDDDDDD *WAILS* :( :( :( OKAY OFFICALLY LAST DAY OF THAT FUCKING SHIT..

i think..i'm going to sleep..then sleep..then sleep..and sleep..

i want to experience a 1 week sleep. i wonder if it's possibly. I take cs, w33d, red and finish myself off with yellow.

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS YESYESYSEYESYYESYESYESYESYESYES

i woke up today feeling fucking grumpy, went to school and ended up laughing my ass off..
seriously i cannot keep track how many times i've said "FUCK SA FUCK SCHOOL FUCK THIS SHIT."
but yeah..i'm really getting through with it..

Okay a few things striked off! just really 2 more last things on the list..

ACHILESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111

2008-08-11T04:47:08Z

Touch your thighs, I'm the lonely one
Remember that lass, because that was the right one
Oh, all your mysteries are moving in the sun
And show some love and respect
Wanna get some love and respect
Baby you can see that the gazing eye won't lie
Don't give up your lover tonight
Cause it's just you, me and this fire, alright
Let's tend to the engine tonight
Oh
She found a lonely sound
She keeps on waiting for time out there
Oh love, can you love me babe
Love, is this loving babe
Is time turning around
Feast your eyes, I'm the only one
Control me, console me
Cause that's just how it should be done
Oh, all your history's like fire from a busted gun
Now show some love and respect
Don't wanna get a life of regret

Okay so here goes, i was at siglap on saturday and yeah since starbucks is GONE had to go to gelare and..i think they should...increase the..shelter thing to the smoking area. GOD ..

i just realised that bus 14 around 3-4 pm always has 3-4 people who play this same game on psp..maybe they're all friends but..they don't sit together. Ohwell..

Guess who's birthday is coming, Ha ha Ha hAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhA AHA i still remember what a fucking bummer seriously.

Why? cause i was planning this huge thing for her i even placed some fucking alert shit on my phone and it woke me today. Hah HA hAh a.. the things you do for someone you love. Ok, let me go like..delete that shit from my phone cause i think it's gonna vibrate again soon.
I still haven't threw or burnt that last bit of her yet, it's still in my drawer. Not cause i go "AWWW" when i see it but like yeah, i'm too lazy to bring it out....place it on the ground, that the gastove lighter thingy..burn it....

i cannot help but giggle and smile to myself about friday night. It has really been such a long time since i had so much fun..maybe cause the alcohol was just fucking cheap and i drank like 3 more than i'm supposed to. HA hA and like..yeah everythin was just great except for the part being fucking useless sending eunice home and only paying like 10 bucks for the cabfare. UGH next time when i go mustafa i must bring more money...but i hate that place...it's so like..crowded and hxc..

okay i lost my lighter, my best lighter..the windproof one..the one i always take out when i gamble and the one i bring with me everywhere. It's supposed to be my good luck charm..but..maybe then again it's stupid to be dependant on things..it should be someone not something. right? okay nvm fucklol.

HOW WE MISSED YOUR BEAT AGAIN #2

2008-08-09T04:06:11Z

taking back all the things i saiddddddddddddddddd

okay last night was unexpectedly fun, with chocolate not coming i was kinda pissed but yeah turned out to be really good cause the company was excellent.I feel rather bad..i couldn't sleep at all, as you can see why am i awake at this hour.

Slept for awhile, woke up fucking stoned to the max, tried remembering what happened last night. First thing was obviously ahem, second was "i'm still pissed at chocolate.", third was i think i should call jared and jerome if they're okay cause we were all pretty high last night and yeah lastly was ahem again.

Overall yeah it was really nice, with the company and all. Made new friends bumped into alot of people. Damm hxc, haha
Tonight is SW DAY. H33333h333333333.

When you drink it makes you angry,
When i drink i want you more and more and more.

so tell me how to feel nothing..how to feel safeeeeeeeee ha ha BIGGEST MISTAKE EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AND HOW WE MISSED YOUR BEAT AGAIN...

2008-08-07T16:12:06Z

"I know my chances." HA HA..

so.. so.. true..

The weekend is approaching..

Someone Similar.

2008-08-06T14:02:03Z

Your heart is a river that flows from your chest through every organ
And your brain is the dam and I am the fish who can't reach the core.

About me, right there baby..

Just another 2 more days and i can enjoy. Everything is going peaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaachy just as planned. HEHEEEEEE fck fuck fuck fuck fuck cannot wait. On friday and saturday and monday someone is fucking taking me home. TEEEEHeEEEEE

i AM READY TO SEE SOME UNICORNSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS FUCCCCCCCCCCCK i cannot wait.
Today i met someone similar to me, that's been experiencing what i'm going through and make even worse..i pity her, but yeah. Things do get peachy in the end..trust me. It just takes time, once it comes don't ever waste your chance to enjoy it. Cause life tends to have periods of when it's peachy or not. Speaking with some experience about not using your chances..

EEEEEEEEEEEELOVERSZZZZZZZ Z Z Z Z EHHEAH

2008-08-05T12:18:10Z

HI i've finished my assignment. LIKE FUCKING FINALLY. THE FINAL AND FINAL AND FINAL ONE.

I love myself now for enduring through the whole fuckign journey. Fucking staring at a computer screen is not cool at all, i mean it's not even dota..It's fucking photoshop..

Anyways, the very minute i handed it up, pasted my name on it and everything. WOW the feeling...i cannot describe..Ha ha we're just waiting for everyone to finish, straight after we all handed up we ran to each other "HIGH FIVE BRO HIGH FIVE BRO" HA HA fucccccccccccccccccckingggg shiok. No more staying till fucking 8pm/9pm.No more Saturday afternoon stayback shit crap.

Omg things are getting so peachyyyyyyyyyyyy. i don't care about prelims at all. I am more concentrated for finals. Nothing matters other than that.

THINGS ARE SO PEACHY NOWWW AHHHHHHH

ONLY 2 MORE THINGS TO MAKE IT COMPLETE.

LOVE YOU ALL

H8 u t0 Th3 c0r3

2008-08-03T13:17:12Z

Wait, no screw whatever i said. Your existence is 0 zero NOTHING noathoa ITS GONE. You're gone i don't know who you are, what you were. i don't care what you do and will not give 2 fucks about you. Your name in my phone is gone, your number is a foreign number.Tofu won't make me remember you,Estacy makes me remember someone else..

i'm feeling peachy :)

weekend will come back to me soon, when that happens i just get so happy. i tear up and rejoice buy buying myself a pack of menthol. Just a kick start to my weekend. HURRRRR love you allzzz

I am gonna miss PCD, fuck me..

2008-08-02T16:35:41Z

WILL YOU BE THEREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE RAAOOOOR.

ok dinner was fucking awesome tonight, got to have a nice chat with familia..good food..seeing dad tipsy is always a fucking joy i swear. I FOUND OUT TODAY HE IS A UNICORN LOVER TOO HA HA OMG HIGH FIVE.

THIS HOUSE IS FUCKING EMPTYYYYYY, brother clubbing , sister clubbing but it has this nice feeling but yet like lonely but yeah.
I think the worst but best feeling is waking up to no one at home. No mother nagging to get you to wake up, no father to shout at you during training. Feels greatttttttttt

burrr...burrr....cizz. HISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSHISSSSHISSSSS

secret lov333 3 3 3

2008-08-02T04:01:45Z

Okay..things have been pretty peachy! Getting better i guess..but as we all know somethings just never change. Like how i can never impress my parents or can never make them happy, or happier.I was playing Poker online till fucking late yesterday, i fucking was like 11k up so i was damm bored and i tried the high rollers room. OKAY i totally got my ass pwned right left centre, i swear they are using hacks. EVERYTIME I BLUFF they always know and there's a reason why they're called high rollers..the pot was up till like 30 k at one point of time. really hardcore stuff..

I'm in the animation lab now, gonna finish my envelope and i'm done. I'm so happy..HA HA okay didn't sound like it..but yeah.It was my grandma's birthday yesterday so we all like celebrated and shit..shes like..80 this year.Okay i have like..4 hours and 30 minutes to go. I think i can finish my envelope in time and finish up my prep. NOICE NOICE. i'm so happy like seriously.

Sad to say..i feel like a boulder with one side flatten. and i'm resting on my flatten side right on the edge of the cliff and even if someone pushes me back, i might not be on the right path.

HA ha!! nO KIDDING I DONTKNOW WHAT IM SAYING EITHER HEHE

I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
But you're not alone, and you're not discreet
Make sure I know who's taking you home.

Change.

2008-07-31T12:23:05Z

You are far greater than you have ever dreamed of being. And no matter what you are experiencing in your life right now, trust that all is good and unfolding in your best interests.It may not look pretty, but it is exactly what you need to learn for you to grow into the person you have been destined to become.Everything occurring in yoru life has been perfectly orchestrated to inspire your maximal evolution as a human being and to bring you into your true power.Learn from life and allow it to take you where you are meant to go- it has your highest interest in mind.

Ok that was inspiring..YESSSSSSSSSSSAHHHH it's gonna be friday tomorrow. Prelims starts tomorrow! but i'm still happy, after prelims go arty arty for awhile..just touch up a few things here and thereeeeeeeee!! Get out my signage and Napkin Coverssss AND I'M FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
Taking medication isn't quite bad as people think it is..i think its pretty ok what? i don't know why so many people complain about it. Hmmm
ha ha anyways all of us in art class today we're on the verge of crying cause it was so stressful cause she just didn't want to talk to any of us and like we we're seeking like consultation then like yeah but it was all peachy in the end. SEE IT'S ALWAYS PEACHY IN THE END!!!

LOVE YOU LOVERSSSS

THESE WORDS WERE NEVER EASIER FOR ME TO SAY.

2008-07-30T13:45:01Z

Hi Lovers, school is still the same damm mudane routine..but on a lighter note
i AM studying and yeah things are starting to get peachy, so amen to that.
FUCKkKKK singfest day 2 sold out? NO MORE PCD?! >:' (
NO ONE WANTS TO GO FOR DAY 1?

Okay nevermind fucking gonna miss singfest this year AGAIN, ha ha cheeee....bye.
Speaking about cheeeebye the cheebye is no where to be found, SO YES YES YES.
My huge ipod which has like..18 gb of my life is spoilt. Fuck me, but nevermind i have a spare..which is only 4gb..and can only fit like..NOTHING. It's okay nevermind, life is all about disappointment and Ups and Downs.
Today we went to M.I.N.D.S this place where the mentally challenged people go to work and study..
it was kinda okay i guess helping out and stuff. FUCK but the laughing part was really fuckedup to the max, i feel so bad but i just can't help it cause you know when one guy starts laughing, you know..it's just like wild fire. Even my form teacher was trying his best to hold in his laughter.

Okay enough of that, tomorrow will be a good day, everything's gonna go just fine.Nothing is gonna bring me down, things will get better and are already have been. Just needa stay strong through everything! AMEN! WWEEEEEEE i'm trying to quit smoking and im like sneezing like a lil bitch, i'm feeling very grumpy BUT IT'S OKAY! cause that's just life! H A HA fuck okay fuck this, off for a smoke.

HA HA so much for quitting// ok now it's cutting down. HA HA fucking typical excuses..

Love you lovers! CIAOBELLAFUCKOFFBYE!KTHXBYE!ZHAOLIAO!TATA!teeehEerRXxx

Faith in everything..

2008-07-29T13:03:33Z

Okay, so everyone's rushing to finish everything. ARt art art art art, it's getting difficult to just breathe with more troubles piling up.
It's getting difficult but i'll look on the brightside on life..
Singfest, there's soccer soon again, umm..friends and people who i really love, just looking at them would make me happy,make me feel that lightness, that lightness that i need to go on through the day.To get myself up every morning, to walk in school without two boulders tied to my feet..and to just enjoy being myself.SIGHHHH hehe okay i'm happier now. HA.. HA..
i'm touching the stars again..soon, just let me find the time, join me, lie beside me, let me feel your warmth, so i'll know that i'm not alone and hold me tight, never let go and tell me i'm your brightest star..

We're like crystal, we break easy
I'm a poor man if you leave me
I'm applauded, then forgotten
It was Summer, now it's Autumn

I don't know what to say
You don't care anyway
I'm a man in a rage
with a girl I betrayed
Here comes love, it's like honey
you can't buy it with money
you're not alone anymore
shock me to the core
you shock me to the core

We're like crystal, it's not easy
With your love you can't beat me
Every man and every woman
Needs someone
So keep it comin', keep it comin', keep it comin'
keep it comin', keep it comin', keep it comin'

Just another mistake.

2008-07-28T14:05:56Z

I'm kinda happy you're not with me here, cause you'll just make me unhappy. I heard you've not been attending school blabla not going home, mom finding for you. I'm pretty sure all of this isn't my fault, you choose who you mix with and yeah i guess i don't even think it's from influence.I really don't know where you're going and even i don't care 2 cents about you anymore. I still do have a heart, and you prolly would laugh if you're reading this, but yes i seriously do.If you think you're too cool for school then by all means do what you like but yeah. I honestly think you should go to a nice park, find a nice place to sit down, just really think where you're going. I should know, sometimes you just do things without thinking about your parents and people who REALLY care, so just sit down and think..is this really what you want?It's fine to get only yourself in trouble but if you're making your parents call other people and stuff and getting them dragged into it too..seriously think again.

I don't remember you, you fade away so easily..

We all just don't wanna be alone.

2008-07-28T09:01:38Z

I tried eating mango pudding with just chopsticks. POSSIBLE. SERIOUSLY..

Anywayssssssssssssssss school was Okiedokie, wtf they asked me to cut my hair again? WTF? like they just cut my hair super short and retarded.Now they're asking me to cut it again? i swear my school is just fucking retarded..there was this guy with like..NO hair at all and he got caught too. SSeriouslyyyyyy.

During assembly today my IO was giving the talk HA HA. Lucky we didn't see face to face..Andrew from toa payoh police ....haaa..a
mmm..today we went to..um..toa payoh park to just slack for awhile before going back to school..Smoked and played 21 as usual.Another day another night same thing same mundane routine. Today i realised, that without art i only have 4 subjects..but N levels only count best 3 and a pass in english is compulsory right? HMmMmM ha ha nick was saying like who would be coming back again next year for sec 5..it got me thinking..I'm not really sure i'll come back. To be honest i don't really want to..cause that school sucks, but then again i don't wanna waste 1 year..in private but even if i do go private i'll be doing private O's anyways right? HMmMMmmMM okie nevermind i shall have a nice chat with the mothership one of these days.

Friday was fun, Saturday was fun, Sunday was such a lazy day omg, just tennis in the morning and then tuition at night.
Anyways i was talking to zy about stuff that day, she told me a few things that i would really want to hear..it might be made up or whatever but..yeah it actually calms me down alot.Things change, people don't or maybe they do,feelings change or maybe they don't..who knows?

I remember my old teammates calling me the most irresponsible captain, fucking demoraliser and silent busride boy.
Hahahahahahahhah i was talking to one of them recently. Really made me laugh like crazy..all those good times..
Yes i was very irresponsible, i think the vice captain was the REAL captain. HAHA doing everything.. HAHA i remembered in the bus when we were gonna play barker. i gathered everything and told everyone that we're gonna lose. HAHAHAHHAHAHAH shit that was funny but we won 4-1 and me and peng won the deciding match. That was some good shit times...how we gave those fucking ri fucks a good match and how i always just spam hardstyle on my ipod in the bus to psyche myself up and from that they gave me a nickname. Silent Busride Boy. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh miss you alllllll please come visit back soon :)

& i've been consistent to the fucking dream.

i <3 life.

2008-07-26T14:07:03Z

If you're cold and you're alone
And you don't know where to go
You can call me anytime
Nothing's changed, I am still here

If you're running out of breath
And your building's burning down
You can jump, I will catch you
Nothing's changed, I am still here

With heavy hands and an absent mind
Did I blow your candle out?
With shortened words and a lack of time
Am I ever on your mind?

And they say time is a healer
And time will look after you
Let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go
Come over

I feel so naked, like before we met
Last night I was so close to just calling you up
They say it takes time to heal the wounds
I can't wait, I can't wait
Come over

Just the words which i wish i could tell you, but you're on a whole different league, too complicated, i've got no chance..

Today my fine came, Mom freaked out and my dad was just like..zzz. I don't understand what's with confiscating my phone..like??? but it hurts to see she cares so much and i just take it forgranted all the time. I understand what she's trying to do..but to be honest it won't make anything better.It was such bad luck to get caught that day, i mean..ah.. Now she's blaming the school, which she should ha ha..that school fucking suck balls..I fucking wonder which other school fucking has guards to catch people for smoking and they actually FINE you in the end. Fuckedup. in our underage life we have only 4 or 5 chances, trust me. It's possible to get caught twice in a day. there goes half of your chances right there..

Anyways on a lighter note, soccer today was great, scored a few goals that i would remember for life. High five to everyone, sorry that i had to leave so suddenly, i know i know. Once i'm free again we can play again :) or we can just go back to chilling at my place. ha ha..

Everything is uncertain in this world of mine, but there is only one thing that is crystal clear and will always be.Love always had it's tight grip around my heart, i don't know why it's like this. Why it has to be you, why it has to be like this but FUCK IT teeeeeeheeee i believe things will get better i pray i pray and i'll change but something will never..
Forever & Ever

takecare my lovers >.<!!

Trust me, tonight, tomorrow and forever.

2008-07-23T08:10:07Z

And our love could have soared
Over playgrounds and rooftops
Every park bench screams your name
I kept your tie

Okieeeeee i just finished some workie workieeeee, relax timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
i think...bloc party should come to singapore. HA HA
i lost twenty dollars this week from blackjack, fucking fuckedup hahahahhahaahhahahahahaha
i love watching sensation black videos it just gets me pumping. Like HARDCORE...i wanna go i wanna go i wanna go i wanna go so bad.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jIV_L1pyVy8&feature=related

ENJOY LOVERS.

PHOTOSHOP SIAOZXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

2008-07-22T12:58:59Z

My i feel like my eyesight is getting worse from all that staring at this fuckinG PIECE OF UCKING SHIT PHOTOSHOP HEUIAHRIU#Y#&&&&&&&&&&&&&& ok finally i'm home and done from that shit. FUCK FUCK FUCK i am running out of cigs. My wish stick is left... :(

Anyways more importantly after fucking leaving my shitty ass school when the sky looks like it's already early morning. On the long ride home to the quiet east, i was listening to mayday parade and i couldn't just help but think about so many things on the way. Many things i thought about were..more HEARTcore if you know i mean..after thinking about all of it i just started laughing to myself. HA HA i think art really is taking its toll on me. :O!!!!!!

Oh i'm looking forward to this weekend even more, because now i really need to relax. Only 1 more week left till dateline EEXXZKZZZ >.<!! TirEdNEHZZZZZzzzzz. You know right, usually right..i didn't give 2 fucks about art. I would rather smoke under the pondok for 2 hours and then go home or play soccer or...i don't know blackjack.After what someone said to me that day, i am really going to prove to her that i have changed and yeah i don't just always say it..and what i'm doing now doesn't only show for my studies but for everything else.. KIAZZZ teeeeeee heeeeeeeeeeeeeex x x x x x x x x x

OK I FEEL LIKE..DIRTY AND "NGIAM NGIAM"

Could i have you?

2008-07-20T15:42:15Z

yay! tuition is done..i feel kinda smarty smarty now cause i answered everything RIGHT. Finally getting it man..
Sigh, okay i'll be perfectly honest with myself and say that it won't work out ever now.Cause it's been a long time and i should just get over it. OKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK trying my best since forever. It's just how people say it like it's so easy. Or maybe just that i'm just extra sensitive, especially when it comes to you. Life sometimes can be so predictable..i can like..play out the scenario in my head already. Hope that day won't come so soon, sometimes when i actually have free time to stargaze..i always ask myself 3 things, why i do so much?, what about you and when will it actually stop. It's been lingering here and there since last time but recently it's like been growing on me..more than ever and maybe she could see that, and thats why maybe she hated you so much.. Cause yeah, i must imagine how it felt like and yeah it wouldn't feel nice. Apologising for that now isn't gonna make things better nor would it make anyone happier.I wish sometimes i could rewind time too, change certain things. Maybe life would better..like my police case, and all those times making my mother cry and most especially.....secret..

You're all [that] I hoped I'd find
In every single way
And everything I would give
Is everything you couldn't take
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay

hehehe sounds sounds just like likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (:

I will posses your heart

2008-07-20T12:09:09Z

When the rain starts shaking the ground
I hope that you're ready now
I hope you're ready for it
When you get caught out in the rain
I hope that you're ready now
For all the storms that head your way

Yesterday was kinda funnnnnnnn moshing and shit for plainsunsettttttttt just that before i was about to sleep wasn't so cool but its cool nowwwwww cuz likeee yeahhhhhhh i have tuition in like 2 minutes time..study study study
HiAkZ cannot wait for next week. HiAkxx hurhurhurr cause i h8 school and i h8 school..i would want to have a job next time that would not get me stressed out but instead let me travel around the world,i could stargaze in paris, sipping some good champagne it would only be complete with a lover with me. NOW that is my dream..ok shall work to it now. HA HA.. LOVE YOU LOVERS!