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Old feelings burning brighter than ever.. [Nov. 2nd, 2008|03:46 am]
[Current Mood |nostalgicnostalgic]
[Current Music |paramour more like paramore..]

halloween was aight, ning is a cheebye cause she wiped her whole fucking face on my sleeve. knnccb!
jasmine was..like just totally high and gone, still want to drink after even, luckily i wasn't the one taking care of her..
i was perfectly fine until i started owning, then the feeling kicked in and plus my empty stomache Urghhh..
made few new friends, i personally and honestly think anderson is a bloody handsome chap.

I r very jealous :(
sigh, owell lucky people in this world, me and jared smoking in the cab was really DEEE shit.. love it.
Getting home after was hahahha fucking funny, It started raining at like 4, so i kinda thought we should leave asap.
but we ended up drinking and talking about really things that relates us. HA HA i cannot forget jaime's face sitting on the chair with her "wtf is going on why did i come here face."
Pretty happy that she was with them at the party, haven't seen her in ages and well..
she never fails to look fucking flyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Yes..very verrrrrry soothing on my eyes..perfect for my sad lil pair of eyes.

Sunday will be chillax day because i feel like chillingggggggg
i feel like watching the whole of LOTR again..i shall consider tmr..
ke ke ke halloweeeeeeeen u are so yesterday but people are still..dressing up..whaatthefuccccccccck..

Not rather this not rather that,
what i want is something in the past,
kinda present,
after her,
before her,
am i certain?
no, not really but i'll like to just keep it to myself.
Cause sometimes somethings are just meant to be kept secret ^^
try not to read between the lines,
cause no one in this world can understand,
how i feel, how i think, what you know now...is only just a glimpse..

SLEEP [Sep. 28th, 2008|05:25 pm]
[Current Mood |mellowmellow]
[Current Music |duality - slipknot]

i've never had such a good sleep in my entire life...
gonna just revise one last time later on..

maybe you've been shredding secretly in ur backyard!
WaaAaaa my eyeszxzx, they hurt they hurt they hurt.

i cannot wait for the next epi of 90210..jessica..mmmm HA HA
yeah i rather have no one else
i bet you've been tapping secretly in your basement!

Only people in pain can do painful things.
Only people who have been hurt can hurt others
Only people with closed hearts are able to act in less than loving ways..

i could listen to tulips everyday all daylong...mmm..

BLOOD.. [Sep. 10th, 2008|11:54 pm]
[Current Mood |nostalgicnostalgic]

to the one and only person who knows everything about me. I know we aren't really close and we can't talk much cause of certain circumstances..losing ur phone and shit. I still remember how it all started, last year november, i just moved into my new house. Bored as fuck, and i randomly asked you to come over with your ps2 as we winning eleven and later go simpang.Surprisingly you agreed, with one condition tho you had no cash and i jokingly said " zhao cab la.." when you called me i was waiting outside with my wallet in my right hand, ciggerette in another. However there was no taxi and you were sweating and panting like a bitch, took me a spilt second to realise and i started laughing my fucking ass off fucking hardcore..So much for britney spears give me more huh? Who knew that would start a beautiful friendship, from just going to town stoning at each other, drinking together, going to town after waking up at 5 pm. Looking at our stoned faces during the bus rides, exchange of songs, Cooking noodles ha ha standard, then bring to the back to eat & smoke. Talking about girls, girls and maybe a certain girl ;)

Talking about games, how a diablo and final fantasy freak you were, well you still are!
Playing soccer together, going to simpang and using the free food technique which we have already banned ourselves from using ever again.Smoking in my toilet and YES DON'T LIE I ALWAYS get the small space, or you would be a sialan cunt and rush to sit on the railing then i would have no choice but to stick my head out. How we always eat jap food tgt. HE HE pig ourselves out. The countless of times you had to wait at the park, the one where you waited for 2 hours cause i was sleeping and you woke up early and went out for tea..you weird dog. How i had dinner with your mom and she went all aggro cause she was tipsy, scared the living shit outta me and how can we not forget heart to heart chats, about a particular girl or maybe just life itself, introducing you to my secret rooftop that no one knows i go. Writing songs for our SOON TO BE band..and just chain smoking.
How you'll just sit on my laundry basket and watch me OWN in dota HE HE. Having dinner with my parents HA HA seafood and i kept giving you muscles to eat and the countless repeating of "thx..thxx.thx.."
Fucking scheming about beating people ha ha haha
reading seventeen and talking about how we all love to date so many girls but we'd always have a particular one in the end anyways. Being fucking sneaky all the time around my house but there was this time when my parents were overseas and my house was like a fucking FUNFAIR.. smoke freely in my room. Door open, close, whatever didn't matter...

I was laughing about the times you'll just play dota and not pay attention to anything at all. I could throw my boxers at you, me and vanjill could be under the covers and you wouldn't even turn just to see where we are, what we're doing. Ha ha you and jon in the toilet, caught something with your eyes that you guys shouldn't have seen. How you tell me your "maxim" accident and we tell everything anything anyways.

yeah we've been through stupid arguments, but that's what life is isn't?
not stupid arguments but getting through the worst for the better.

Takecare of yourself you mother fucking maid mutt. :) I will see you around and hopefully bump into you soon.
You should know who you are..

OCTOBER [Sep. 3rd, 2008|07:30 pm]
[Current Mood |fullfull]
[Current Music |PINEWOOD DERBY]

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now - even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and i. It can be good or bad, it can be anything you want. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.( i just stole this from eu eu and i think it's from hannah ^^ )


Okay..i should take my mind off it..
this picture cracks me up so fucking bad..it's actually making me forget what i just read he he, happyyyyyyy ^^ V!!!!!!!!

Link13 RAWR!|RAWR!

[Aug. 14th, 2008|02:42 am]
[Current Mood |hopefulhopeful]

The roads are so empty tonight..i can hear the polluted canal just slowly move..
 Met jerms and kaiwennnnnznznnz just now, fucking missed them
both still the same :)

Sigh, i was looking up in the sky tonight while walking home, it's really dammm AH breathtaking. The clouds today really just...
i wonder which star you are tonight..

school starts in 3 hours..ugh fuck me..

Sayin' I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say it, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cause I'd already know


(no subject) [Aug. 13th, 2008|01:29 am]
[Current Mood |nostalgicnostalgic]
[Current Music |MAH MAH MAH!]

Ok..just another 30 minutes till i cycle to simpang to buy my cigs..
fucking need to smoke so badddddddddddddddddddddddddddd harrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrxxxxxxxx if only marine parade was nearer!!!!!!! it's too fugging far to cycle..

okay this is my usual plan for a night like this, go in my p.e shirt and boxers. Buy my cigs, usually pallmall menthol or if i'm feeling rich dunhill frost, prolly head over to kaiwen's or jerm's just to catch up and talk and talk and talk. Cycle or walk back home..walk to the back of my house. Smoke one more, then up to my room. Smoke one more then wash my face, charge my phone, set my alarms ( no im lying) and finally get myself under the cover and i'll just think of happy things that make me smile and giggle hehe then after 5-10 minutes ( sometimes it goes for hours) i finally curl myself into a comfortable position and just go "dead" mode oh before that i have to put my blanket at this certain position so it wraps around my feet.I also like hug things when i sleep, soft things usually my pillow ( yeah i know i don't have a bolster wtf?)i usually like the outer side but i can take both sides but usually the left..i like to close my window shades right before the maximum so that i don't wake up in total darkness i like it when rays of light just shoot inside. wowazx. i'll close my toilet door but not to the maximum cause my room has suction so if my maid opens the door in the morning to off the aircon or whatever it'll make a knock sound which is fucking a turn off.

i also like it when i'm sleeping but i feel a smile on my face and wake up to see someone famillar, prolly someone that i luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv
i also like to wake up to a sweet smell all over my bed, on my clothes and really just everywhere.i also like it when i wake up and i find my phone to have only 1 message from that one person i was thinking of last night. i also like it when i wake up to have pancakes and my whole family there with me just like old times. I also like it when mom and dad talk nicely to each other over a cup of coffee while i use the computer and listen to the conversation sneakily. I also like it when i wake up and i see 2 notes for me one for when i wake up to check for you and the other after i wake up again. I also like it when there's no asshole mazda fucking driving at 200 mph down a fucking narrow road with houses everywhere 5am in the morning. His car engine is my brothers car x 2, i think he's challenging my father..seriously. I also like it when i wake up and open my window to smoke and i don't see any ahbengs right opposite my house(the park).i also like it when i wake up and it just finished raining and theres a huge rainbow. Wait no this is what i love the most, i like waking up feeling fucking happy cause you had such a good dream last night it just might be real and when you try to find for your retainers they're right there..and when you check your ciggerette pack there's none missing.


keeping space for only you in this run down place.. [Aug. 12th, 2008|07:55 pm]
[Current Mood |curiouscurious]
[Current Music |iceboxxxxxxxxx - there for tomorrow]


i think..i'm going to sleep..then sleep..then sleep..and sleep..

i want to experience a 1 week sleep. i wonder if it's possibly. I take cs, w33d, red and finish myself off with yellow. 


i woke up today feeling fucking grumpy, went to school and ended up laughing my ass off..
 seriously i cannot keep track how many times i've said "FUCK SA FUCK SCHOOL FUCK THIS SHIT."
but yeah..i'm really getting through with it..

Okay a few things striked off! just really 2 more last things on the list..


ACHILESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111 [Aug. 11th, 2008|12:26 pm]
[Current Mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[Current Music |the present - bloc bloc bloc party.]

Touch your thighs, I'm the lonely one
Remember that lass, because that was the right one
Oh, all your mysteries are moving in the sun
And show some love and respect
Wanna get some love and respect
Baby you can see that the gazing eye won't lie
Don't give up your lover tonight
Cause it's just you, me and this fire, alright
Let's tend to the engine tonight
She found a lonely sound
She keeps on waiting for time out there
Oh love, can you love me babe
Love, is this loving babe
Is time turning around
Feast your eyes, I'm the only one
Control me, console me
Cause that's just how it should be done
Oh, all your history's like fire from a busted gun
Now show some love and respect
Don't wanna get a life of regret

Okay so here goes, i was at siglap on saturday and yeah since starbucks is GONE had to go to gelare and..i think they should...increase the..shelter thing to the smoking area. GOD ..

i just realised that bus 14 around 3-4 pm always has 3-4 people who play this same game on psp..maybe they're all friends but..they don't sit together. Ohwell..

Guess who's birthday is coming, Ha ha Ha hAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhA AHA i still remember what a fucking bummer seriously.

Why? cause i was planning this huge thing for her i even placed some fucking alert shit on my phone and it woke me today. Hah HA hAh a.. the things you do for someone you love. Ok, let me go like..delete that shit from my phone cause i think it's gonna vibrate again soon.
I still haven't threw or burnt that last bit of her yet, it's still in my drawer. Not cause i go "AWWW" when i see it but like yeah, i'm too lazy to bring it out....place it on the ground, that the gastove lighter thingy..burn it....

i cannot help but giggle and smile to myself about friday night. It has really been such a long time since i had so much fun..maybe cause the alcohol was just fucking cheap and i drank like 3 more than i'm supposed to. HA hA and like..yeah everythin was just great except for the part being fucking useless sending eunice home and only paying like 10 bucks for the cabfare. UGH next time when i go mustafa i must bring more money...but i hate that place...it's so like..crowded and hxc..

okay i lost my lighter, my best lighter..the windproof one..the one i always take out when i gamble and the one i bring with me everywhere. It's supposed to be my good luck charm..but..maybe then again it's stupid to be dependant on things..it should be someone not something. right? okay nvm fucklol.


HOW WE MISSED YOUR BEAT AGAIN #2 [Aug. 9th, 2008|11:52 am]
[Current Mood |somewhere in the middle.]

taking back all the things i saiddddddddddddddddd

okay last night was unexpectedly fun, with chocolate not coming i was kinda pissed but yeah turned out to be really good cause the company was excellent.I feel rather bad..i couldn't sleep at all, as you can see why am i awake at this hour.

Slept for awhile, woke up fucking stoned to the max, tried remembering what happened last night. First thing was obviously ahem, second was "i'm still pissed at chocolate.", third was i think i should call jared and jerome if they're okay cause we were all pretty high last night and yeah lastly was ahem again.

Overall yeah it was really nice, with the company and all. Made new friends bumped into alot of people. Damm hxc, haha
Tonight is SW DAY. H33333h333333333.

When you drink it makes you angry,
When i drink i want you more and more and more.

                                                   so tell me how to feel nothing..how to feel safeeeeeeeee ha ha BIGGEST MISTAKE EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AND HOW WE MISSED YOUR BEAT AGAIN... [Aug. 7th, 2008|11:55 pm]
[Current Mood |boredbored]
[Current Music |Underøath]

"I know my chances." HA HA..

so.. so.. true..

The weekend is approaching..


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